Here we go again!

 Rededicating myself again today. Got out my treadmill started using MyFitnessPal again Just got to get it together again! 
Lots going on the last two years. Last year I lost my job of 18 years. My company sold our division to someone else who moved it all to California from New Hampshire where we were based. Got a compression fracture on my T12 vertebrae. Which took nearly a year to heal. The first several months were extremely painful. I could not exercise . That happened last May. I went back to work in September. Worked there for 8 months as a temp. Had to quit for rotator cuff surgery on my right arm. That was 3 weeks ago. It's feeling better now but still have three more weeks to wear this stupid sling then intensive physical therapy several months to follow. Doctor said I would be out of work for three or more months. Since I was a temporary worker there I will not get any compensation. Luckily though my husband has excellent health insurance so that was not an issue. So things have been a little bit in turmoil for me and I have drowned my sorrows in food.  Losing a job, having to find a new job, starting a new job, painful back injury and now surgery. But I guess I need to drag myself out of this slump I'm in and get back to taking care of myself as far as my weight loss is concerned. So here I go again. Starting out at 195 lbs and really need to see a lot lower numbers on my scale in the near future. Got to make this happen.

I'm Back!!!...again

New year and a new me...again.  "Every set back is a set  up for a comeback"... and I plan on making an awesome comeback.  I am slowly getting myself in gear for getting back on track and losing the weight I gained over the holidays.  (let's face it it wasn't just the holidays...tee hee hee)  I will be checking in and reading what all of you have to say and hopefully this will jumpstart my motivation to make it happen once again.  I have been out of work for the past 2 weeks and my schedule has been thrown all out of whack but back to work on Monday and back to a routine.  Am still thinking about whether I want to go back to W/Ws this year.  I really hate all that counting of points!!  It does work though.  I will have to think on that some more.  Don't really want to pay for it right now.  Will see how I do on my own and that will be a backup plan.  Onward and upward.  Off to check out what you all have been up to. 
By the way...I gained 10 lbs since I last posted here...so mad at myself!!!  Just felt like I had to confess that...Now I have to be accountable!

Making great strides but not in weight loss

I am logging a lot of miles since I got my new pedometer but haven't done very well in the dieting category.  I just can't seem to get myself into any long term commitment lately.  I do real good for a couple of weeks,  lose a few pounds then a special event comes up with all the great event foods and it just gets the ball rolling in the wrong direction for me.  I backslide so easily.  I went to a 4th of July party last weekend then spent the end of the week on a camping trip.  I went to my WW meeting on Sunday and gained 5 lbs.  I got a lot of exercise... swimming, tennis, long walks, biking, but was so out of control with my eating. 
Once again this week I am all geared up to have a great week and good results on the scale come Sunday.  I am back on track and am writing and planning all my meals for the week.  I should have an easy time as there are no special events planned for a few weeks.  I have a wedding to go to on the 30th though.  I'm looking forward to it in one way because it is my nephew's wedding and a very happy memorable event but I'm not looking forward to all the food and the feeling of being out of control and backsliding again.  I guess I will just have to do a lot of contemplating on this situation and come up with a plan of action.  I have got to get into the right mind set to deal with this obsession I have with food.  I just love the taste of food and the joy it brings when I'm eating something that tantalizes my tastes buds.  Why does life have to be so complicated??? 

Weigh in results.

Weighed in yesterday and gained .4 lbs :-(   but not to worry...I'm all geared up for a better week!!! After all it wasn't even half a pound...maybe muscle fluid from my last minute workout. LOL 
(Or maybe I shouldn't have indulged the binge monster one night this week.)

I'm Back!!!

I've been on a diet break for nearly 3 months now.  I thought I could handle not going to W/Ws meeting and do this by myself...Well I WAS WRONG!!!!  I have gained back all but .6 of what I lost since last October when I started W/Ws.  I am so pissed at myself right now!!!  I gained 18 lbs back.  I just really got away from all of the good habits.  I didn't track my foods,  I had frequent binges and I didn't get much exercise in either.  I got into a funk where I just got sick of it all and didn't care anymore.  Now 18 lbs later I guess I better wake up and start caring again cause I feel like shit...yup I said it SHIT!!! 

Went back to W/Ws this morning and will try and get back into the right mindset again.  Was on program all day and went for a 40 min. bike ride and then later a 30 min. brisk walk.  Off to a good start now I hope it lasts.  So do not want to become that unhealthy person that I will become if I don't get it into gear.  

I need you all to encourage me or give me an old fashioned scolding if that's how you feel.  But please say something to get me back on track no matter how harsh...I deserve it!!!
  So so mad at myself!!!
Kathy